“Connection Prayer” The Divided Path of Deer MD17F0104 - Chapter 3

Potsherds - Ghost of Metabolic Relationship – End of a Long Day

The Vermillion Cliffs still looked like a long way off. We continued through the piñion and juniper hills, stopping to take pictures and video whenever we passed another waypoint. We tried to reimagine the deer in the places she recently occupied. But the form of her ghost was uncertain. Was she alone? Was she with others? 

Soon we began finding potsherds. Some were black on red or black on white. There were corrugated rim pieces and even the very bottom of a pot. According to the GPS, the deer stood in this very spot about a month ago, browsing bitterbrush where people once resided. A new, overlapping story began to form out of the land.   

The people who made these pots were the Virgin Branch Ancestral Puebloan Culture, occupying the area from about 1 CE to around 1200 CE. They chose this area in part because of the prevalence of faunal resources. The area has been an important migration corridor and mule deer winter range for centuries, and elk were also present historically. The dominant animal remains excavated from the nearby Dead Raven, Park Wash, and Kanab archaeological sites were mule deer. Petroglyph panels prominently feature deer in nearby Johnson Canyon and Oak Canyon, as well, often with lines drawn from arrow tips to animal hearts. Knowing that this always was a mule deer migration corridor reveals a story whereby the Ancestral Puebloans dry farmed during the 190 or so frost-free days, and then hunted during the cooler months.

  We dropped our packs and walked to the top of a hill from which the potsherds and pieces of chert seemed to emanate. Someone sat on this shaley hill leaning into the frail warmth of an early spring sun pressing a piece of antler against a hunk of chert. Antlers are much stronger and more elastic than skeletal bone, making them ideal not only for knapping but also for weapon tips in some cultures. Tiny flakes cascaded down the hillside. Was the very animal whose heartline this rock would pierce the same animal who dropped his rack in a muddy, red wash that winter?

The link between animal movement and human subsistence is revealed by these artifacts. Today, because we are no longer reliant on seasonal animal movement, we can’t relate to these migrations in the same way. The ghost of the metabolic relationship between human beings and deer haunts the land. In the absence of this relationship, we have cheat grass and russian thistle where I stood eating beef jerky out of a plastic bag. The ghost is not just the absence, but also what replaces it.   

The movement of deer back and forth between winter and summer ranges transfers energy across landscapes. Deer and other native ungulates consume autotrophs, organisms that turn the sun’s energy into food for growth. This energy is then transformed into portable food for other heterotrophs like mountain lions. Energy is transferred in this way from Buckskin Mountain through the Grand Staircase, over the Pausaugunt and across the Markagunt. Forbs, grasses and shrubs are also transformed into excrement, which is deposited across the landscape. And when a deer dies, the mobile energy stops. The body lies in the blazing heat where it seems no body should. It lies splayed out in the icy winds that rip across the Arizona Strip in January. The body endeavoring for no shelter displays the starkest absence of life. But spark absent, energy is not. Ravens and vultures pick at the body. A coyote tugs until a leg comes off and she carries it into the trees. Brown and gray opens to pink and red. Pink and red opens to white. A blooming which disperses energy through trophic systems far from the place where the deer was born. Precolumbian humans and wolves understood this transfer of energy and followed it, hoping to capture it in a form barely removed from life. Still warm. Mountain Lions follow, wait, follow, wait, follow, wait.

  Today, much autotrophic energy along this corridor is absorbed into cows who are then trucked elsewhere. They contribute little to the metabolism of the land. Predators are not allowed to touch them. Ravens, vultures, and bacteria might get lucky every once-in-a-while and find a lost, drowned, or otherwise dead cow.

  We reached the edge of the trees and the path disappeared. Spread out before us were acres and acres of what was once forest. On the screen of my phone she beelined to the next forested area. We deviated from her path at this point and took the road. We needed a break from bushwhacking. On both sides of the road, stumps and shredded limbs of junipers looked like sunbaked catacombs, and globemallow and pale green grasses rose up around them. I wondered if deer once walked through this area but have been relegated to the forest nearer the Vermillion Cliffs. Deer use piñon and juniper forests as both thermal and hiding cover. The deer we followed appeared to be avoiding grazing areas because it was unsafe for both her and her soon to be born fawn(s). A lack of cover due to the impacts of grazing can increase fawn mortality because it becomes more difficult to hide from predators. I began to see this generational signature of animal movement rewritten by road construction, cattle grazing, and the resulting piñon and juniper removal. A signature rewritten, ghosts born. A juniper graveyard haunted by absences of humans, deer, and mountain lions. Presences of Kentucky bluegrass catch the first light and long, low bawls permeate the dawn.

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In the middle of what was once forest, we began to come across more potsherds in the road. Little black on red pieces lay pressed into the ground inside recent tire tracks. Thousands of sherds lay all around the gray juniper stumps. It was the highest density of artifacts I had ever seen. I wondered if the bullhog drivers knew what was beneath them when they shredded these trees many years ago. As we continued up the road, the artifacts which so excited us a couple hours ago became less noteworthy. We took to pointing with a trekking pole without slowing our pace. Finally, we were passing them without acknowledging them out loud at all. 

We paralleled the deer’s path for a couple miles, she in the piñon and juniper at the base of the cliffs, we on the road. As the road veered toward a break in the cliffs, our paths began to converge. The road became steeper and the dry wash fell below us. Piñion and juniper were joined by gamble oak, and as the path of the deer met the path of the human, the sound of water rose up from the wash below us. It was more than a spring, almost a creek. Clear water pooled and spilled, pooled and spilled. Our packs still heavy with water, we didn’t get to experience this joy of discovery with parched lips. This was the first evidence of what appeared to be reliable water along this migration route. I had known that water was a possibility in this wash, but I didn’t trust it, and began kicking myself for this. The deer knew about it. She has been walking through this wash twice a year for her entire life.

The wash took us up through the Vermillion Cliffs. On top, the sun was hot and the wind was chilly as we walked down the road through the forest. As we crested a low rise the next step of the Grand Staircase was revealed. The fortress of the White Cliffs stood on two sides, 500-foot walls of white Navajo Sandstone with occasional streaks of pink and yellow defining the striations—layers of sand deposited on the leeward side of ancient dunes. 

Again, we paralleled the path of the deer, she deep in the forest, beelining toward the next spring, we on the road a quarter mile away, hoping we weren’t missing anything in there. Our paths again converged. The deer went to the spring and drank. We watched her ghost cross a field and disappear behind ponderosas. Then she crossed our road and went northwest into the forest and skirted the edge of the white cliffs. We wouldn’t be able to follow her right away because we had to retrieve the water I left at the next spring. 

Sadly passing up those two springs the deer surely utilized, we trudged on, my feet beginning to hurt in the sandy road. Eventually, the road trended downhill and we took it straight to the spring. Deer tracks sank into the mossy mud around the water, not our deer’s, though. With my trekking poles in one hand and the water jug in my other hand, I climbed one final hill to camp. The view on top was worth the 17 miles we walked that day. The White Cliffs and the Pink Cliffs beyond them stood in the northwest. A pointy dome dominated the northeast. The vast country we had just crossed lay in the south bluing in the evening light. Chris tiredly talked to himself while his tent lay in a pile at his feet. I paced back and forth drearily, imagining this is what it must feel like to be 80. A western screech owl called from somewhere in the canyon below. The hazy, egg yolk, full moon rose for the first and indeed very last time.

I looked at the moon and thought how I’m still trapped behind these eyes, where the moon comes to meet them. I felt my hands swing through the cold between piñons for the first and last time. Without me the moon wouldn’t rise because no eyes would be here to greet it. The ground would fall away into the nothing there was before there was nothing with no feet for it to press up into. I laid in my sleeping bag on my side while the earth pressed into me. The moonlight between the slits of my eyelids kept the world material and intact until the cracks began to close, a tectonic shift, closing world from world. All trees, all shadowed forms—the bone white walls surrounding a land of blue wind, blue poorwill song, and blue fox shadow—were extinguished. The land fell away for the first and last time. Did anything remain? At least the stars? 

5 Features Every Desert Backpacking Pack Should Have

As a kid from southern Utah, I’ve been backpacking across sandstone, down arroyos, and through willow thickets my whole life. This, in part, led me down a path of searching for ultralight or at least light-ish backpacks with attributes that make them ideal for canyon country backpacking. I have identified 5 features that make a backpack ideal for backpacking in the desert.

Packrafting Gear List

Some people begin packrafting because they’re looking for new ways to connect landscapes. Others begin packrafting because they’re sick of schlepping their 50lb kayak around. I’m in the former camp—an ultralight backpacker-turned-packrafter with extreme ultralight biases. When I wrote a packrafting gear list about 4 years ago, I didn’t realize how strong these biases were and how much they limited my packrafting abilities and comfort. At the time I hadn’t paddled much more than the ephemeral streams in Utah’s canyon country, so my experience was somewhat limited. That list still feels applicable to a certain kind of boating, but it has its limitations. Now, I think a different gear list is needed.

This complete packrafting gear guide is written for most people in most packrafting scenarios—I hope it will help you choose a packraft, a paddle, safety gear, and all the packraft-compatible backpacking gear you need for multi-day expeditions.

Uinta Highline Trail Guide

The Uinta Highline Trail is a 104-mile trail that runs along the Uinta Mountain Range in Utah’s Ashley National Forest and Wasatch-Cache National Forest. The trail is noted for its expansive views and varied terrain, which includes lodgepole forest, glacial valleys, alpine lakes, and high mountain passes. The trail has an average elevation of 10,700′; it crosses eight mountain passes that are over 11,000′, requiring 16,700′ of elevation gain end-to-end. The trail’s highpoint is Kings Peak at 13,528′.

Continue reading at Section Hiker.

Patching Experiments on EPL200 Ultra Fabric

I have patched two intentional holes in the EPL200 Ultra front pocket of my Superior Wilderness Designs Long Haul 50. I will keep an eye on the patches as I continue to use the pack then and report back here to let folks know how they’re holding up.

I call this the Baloo Maneuver. Scraped up and down pretty hard like 12 or 15 times.

I call this the Baloo Maneuver. Scraped up and down pretty hard like 12 or 15 times.

Abrasion resulting from Baloo maneuver

Abrasion resulting from Baloo maneuver

Even got a tiny hole

Even got a tiny hole

Cut a piece of Tear Aid for the inside

Cut a piece of Tear Aid for the inside

Used seam grip on the outside

Used seam grip on the outside

The finished repair. Ugly because of the blue patch behind.

The finished repair. Ugly because of the blue patch behind.

 
Scraped with a sharp rock for 25 minutes while watching Deep Space Nine resulting in this abrasion/hole

Scraped with a sharp rock for 25 minutes while watching Deep Space Nine resulting in this abrasion/hole

Cut a piece of DCF tape for the inside

Cut a piece of DCF tape for the inside

DCF tape inside

DCF tape inside

Applied Aquaseal to the outside

Applied Aquaseal to the outside

Finished repair looks pretty good. I like how the Aquaseal fills in the abrasion and remains malleable. I imagine this will hold quite well.

Finished repair looks pretty good. I like how the Aquaseal fills in the abrasion and remains malleable. I imagine this will hold quite well.

Observing Transition Season

Leopold is arguing that the first four grades with their inherent dissociation from the land, and the relative nonexistence of the fifth among recreationists, pose a huge threat to the lands on which we recreate. The lower recreation grades,

“consume their resource base; the higher grades, at least to a degree, create their own satisfactions with little or no attrition of land or life. It is the expansion of transport without a corresponding growth of perception that threatens us with qualitative bankruptcy of the recreational process. Recreational development is a job not of building roads into lovely country, but of building receptivity into the still unlovely human mind.”

Good Gear Lets You Be Present

Then my attention turned to the pack I was wearing. I was 11 miles into the first day of testing the YAR Gear Mountain Drifter 38 Liter pack and needed to pay attention to whether or not it was working. Suddenly aware I hadn’t spent all that much time thinking about it during those first 11 miles, I promised myself I would try and pay better attention from then on out. I hadn’t noticed undue pressure on my shoulders, hips, or back. All I really did remember from the last 11 miles were the large volcanic stones in the trail, prickly pear, agave, alligator juniper, piñon, yuccas, and countless birds. I remember the looming blue triangle of the Mazatzal Mountains dusted lightly in snow creeping slowly closer to me like one of the pyramids of Giza chained to a winch and cranked heavily across the ground. Is that how they were built? With that thought came a flood of associations. “When the great – pyramids – dragged themselves out to this spot – sickness sank into the little one’s heart,” I sang loudly, remembering the beautiful and dark Jason Molina song.

Take This Poem on Your Next Trip

“The road seen, then not seen,” begins the poem “Santiago” by David Whyte.

The road seen, then not seen, I think, walking down Woodenshoe Canyon in Bear’s Ears National Monument in late November. The red trail below my feet leads into piñon and juniper and turns and disappears within them. The path seen, then not seen. It dips into a willowy wash and is nearly gone, only seen where snake grass is occasionally matted down by past feet. The road seen, then not seen.

Giving Back to Bear's Ears (Backpacking Light)

It would be my first adventure in the Bear’s Ears area. Prior to this trip (which occurred in my early 20s) I had been more interested in the simple aesthetic beauty of desert canyons. Water pouring over orange sand, and fragments of the cobalt sky reflected in it. But after a while, I started to think more deeply about places. The beauty remained, but it began to penetrate time in both directions: centuries into the past, and centuries into the future. And if a particular place — say, Coyote Natural Bridge in Coyote Gulch, for example — was here 800 years ago, who walked under it? What did it mean to them? As these questions developed, the existence of the stories of the land began to appear. But not the stories themselves, just the fact that they exist. I could start to see them, like unlabeled books on a shelf I couldn’t quite reach. First I would have to start walking and asking questions, then maybe, just maybe, a few of those layers would start to reveal themselves.

First stop: Comb Ridge.

The Anthropology of a Trail (Backpacking Light)

Who or what makes a trail?

I’ve often wondered this when veering off the Bonneville Shoreline trail that skirts the edge of Salt Lake City to investigate less distinct deer trails. The Bonneville Shoreline trail is a human trail today, no doubt, but when Lake Bonneville lapped at the shore between 30,000 and 13,000 years ago, bison, deer, and later Shoshone, Ute, Goshute, and other Native people surely walked the edge of the water. Then when the lake receded, it left a clear line, an obvious promenade just asking to be walked. So, who or what created this trail? Did the lake itself make it? After all, today’s trail is named after the lake. The existence of this question seems to speak of its own futility, or maybe trail-making or path-making are just more complex than they appear.

Superior Wilderness Designs Big Wild 70

I’ve been on a hell of a pack journey; it has been challenging to say the least to find something that is light and carries a lot of weight well. If you’ve read through some of my other posts you’ll know that I used a large HMG Porter 4400 (46oz) pack for a while, but it destroyed my shoulders. Then switched to a Seek Outside Divide 4500 which I still have and love but is heavy at 57oz. I began using a medium 32oz HMG SW 3400 modified with loadlifters for most of my three-season trips, but it still wasn’t quite cutting it. I tried the Seek Outside Flight One (38oz) briefly but I bought the wrong size (22”) and did not like the hip belt. My next pack was the Hanchor Marl (40oz) which I still have and like, but which may become obsolete with the introduction of the SWD Big Wild 70.

Frozen Tracks: Monument Restoration and the Fate of the Upper Paria (Backpacking Light)

The Grand Staircase-Escalante National Monument was designated in 1996, with its original size encompassing 1,880,461 acres. President Bill Clinton famously signed the proclamation on the South Rim of the Grand Canyon, several miles and a state away from the southern border of the new monument, an act seen by many local Utahns as cowardly, a slap in the face, and more proof that only outsiders wanted this land to hold monument status. A little over 20 years later, Trump pleased these same folks by reducing the size of the monument by about half. Now many who lamented the shrinking—locals and nonlocals alike—are anticipating President Joe Biden’s restoration of the monument to its original size. On his first day, he signed an executive order for the review of the monument boundaries. With all of this in mind, I decided to walk through an area that could be affected by whatever Biden decides to do to see if there was a story inherent in the place itself, one separate from the political division that accounts for most monument discussions.

Backpacking in a Time of Uncertainty (Backpacking Light)

Throughout the summer, despite the ongoing pandemic, an uncertain relationship, political division in the U.S., the impending election—and the possibility that it wouldn’t go smoothly—I somehow completed several multi-day backpacking trips and even the Uinta Highline Trail. I even said out loud on multiple occasions that I was actually enjoying quarantine, that I was enjoying my work routine at home, and that I liked cooking every meal every day. But by mid-September, something shifted in me.